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Last week I have been busy putting tiles in a part of our garden. I had never done this before, but after a while it went quite alright, in fact, I got so enthusiastic that I just kept on going. At a certain moment I got up and my two-year-old daughter walked towards me asking me to carry her around a bit. It was a sunny day, the tiles were going alright, so I picked her up and toyed around with her, but then it happened: suddenly I couldn't move anymore: for the first time in my 35-year old life my back got into a lock. I crawled to the couch and felt the stinging pain in my lower back.
I was told that most of the time you just need to keep on walking and moving when you have this acute pain in the back, and this is what I tried and indeed after an hour I was able to walk, but as soon as I sat down or laid down for more than 5 minutes the pain returned strongly.
Well, what's the use of telling all this on this site? I think it gives a nice background for what happened the next day when I was slowly recovering from this minor but painful accident. I woke up the next morning and after undoing the damage caused by lying still all night I was able to notice that my breath had turned very shallow.
This shallow breath normally is a sign that something needs to be addressed in the psychological or ascension sense of the word. If you have read the pages on Tuning into Astral Realities and Kumaras Revisited you may remember that I started to utter intentions dealing with the request to get back soul fragments, or lost souls that are stuck in certain Monroe Bands.
What follows is the line of thinking that I developed after noticing my shallow breath. Perhaps it is just a product of my vivid imagination, but perhaps it is not. Perhaps this shallow breath was nothing more than the result of the pain caused by my back.
FOOLS GO WHERE ANGELS FEAR TO THREAD
At first I was hardly able to get my breath back on-line. I asked myself what could be the cause of this, and then I made the connection with my intent to get back lost soul parts from the various astral planes. These soul parts would either be my ancestors or more likely members of my soul group , oversoul or Higher Self (see Part of Two Groups).
At the page on the kumaras I had already mentioned that it might just be a bit dangerous to enter the kumara bands, for it would be like exploring hell. What I found was that I was only able to regain my breath after I fiercely disconnected from any astral soul that I might have met during dreamtime. Apparently these lost soul fragments who live their astral life in the various monroe bands are often unaware of any connection between them and me. It seems that the only thing the do see is a being who has got some chi to give, and there they go: plug into my field in order to drain me of my energy.
That's what you get when you try to help out astral 'family' members. The only thing they can think of is getting as much energy out of you as possible. In a way you can't blame them, for they need the energy in order to survive or postpone a new incarnation, but I can tell you that I was not really pleased with this turn of events. I really felt like a fool believing that these soul fragments would be most willing to respectfully hear me talk about the relative nature of the reality in which they were residing. It seems rather foolish to expect that they would listen and open for the possibility to enter less dissonant realities.
Another possibility could be that I met some other astral entities that got interested in my energy and they tapped into me.
CONCLUSION
What I learned was that I was too naive in going into the astral planes only with the intention to connect to other parts of my 'soul-family' in order to contribute to a clearing of the astral planes. It seems that the only one that got cleared, was me. When disconnecting from any astral activity my breath returned and I felt good again. Somehow I need to think of another way to get into contact with any members of my Higher Self. Perhaps I need to start with connecting to members who reside in the higher, less distorted monroe bands? Perhaps I need to wear some protective suit, or perhaps I need to train myself better to learn to protect me from these 'astral plug-ins'.
Gibbon,
June 2006
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