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The Fear of Losing One's Mind |
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INTRODUCTION
It is sure interesting to notice the possible effects of my recent decision to entice the 'solitary' mental body to take up its role as an aligned mental body (see link above). I have begun to experiment with this instead of by-passing or silencing the body altogether. If you would be able to have a mental body that is capable of corresponding nicely with other aspects of himself then there would be no need to use an external tool like the pendulum: we just need to be able to listen to ourselves better. The process of clearing the mental body probably involves clearing a few thought-forms along the way.
WHY DID A 'SOLITARY' FUNCTIONING MENTAL BODY ARISE?
When I started to focus on this redirection of the mental body a few things happened. I was contacted by a man who told me that after nine of years of being told that he was a paranoid schizophrenic, he was now told by a psychiatrist that he was no such thing: from one day to the next he was no longer a chronicly sick man. There were two interactions which dealt with this theme of insanity as well. On top of that I had a fear-based dream dealing with people being buried alive. I was able to awaken in a peaceful mood and smile at these fears, but with a question mark above my mind.
I like to play with the idea that the world provides you with mirrors that can show you the themes that are important at a particular stage. The outside world could prove to function as a perfect pendulum: you just need to be able to 'read the signs'. If you say such a thing to a regular psychiatrist you need to be careful to get seen as a person suffering the early symptoms from a psychotic break-down.
FEAR OF LOSING ONE's MIND
The mirrors triggered me into connecting the various items: the solitary mind and the fear of going insane. Perhaps there was a very good reason why the mental body decided to close the connections with many other realms or parts of the human constitution. If it would indeed prove to be true that humanity has fallen greatly in awareness during the last hundreds of thousands of years, it could well be that this had a strong impact on the way the various subtle bodies were functioning. I have already mentioned Mila's idea about the splitting of the two original subtle bodies into four.
How likely is it that because of this shattering a distortion arose in the way the subtle bodies communicated with each other and probably with all the other aspects of oneself? Could it be that the intraselfular communication got so distorted that it led to a kind of insanity? Perhaps the only way to stop the insanity from taking over was to block the information from most of the bodies? Perhaps many of us learned that by focusing primarily on the mental body we could remain relatively sane. Sometimes other bodies would try to make their presence known, but the mental body learned to build walls in order to protect the system from a complete break-down.
THE LIMITATIONS OF THE SOLITARY MIND
Let us assume that something like this really happened in the past and that this fear of going insane remained, a fear that has stimulated many of us to remain primarily focused on the solitary mind, blocking out the other information channels. This is of course leaves us with a rather simplistic version of the original well-tuned design.
I am pondering over the possibility that I have triggered these memories through my intent to transform the solitary mind into an aligned mental body. This is another way of proposing to open up to the rest of the information that lies within, including the possible chaos and fear. Perhaps the mental body is scared as death to open this door because of the danger of being overwhelmed into a state of complete insanity.
CONCLUSION SO FAR
What I intend to do next is to first respect and perhaps even thank the solitary mind for everything that it has done to prevent us from going bananas. But I would like to persuade the solitary mind into peeking through the doors that lead to the other components within us. If I am serious with my attempt to ascend in this fashion I need to be very careful about all that is found behind these doors. I don't want to run the risk of being admitted to some psychiatric ward because of an overdose of fearful stimuli.
Well, perhaps it helps if I don't accept such a reality to unfold. Let's just hope that it is again possible to open up well-functioning communication lines between all our aspects.
I would like to hear any comments or suggestions,
Gibbon,
February 2007
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