In the article called 'Sovereignty and Critical Respectfulness' I write about the way I try to have trust in my sense of sovereignty on the one hand and be loyal to the SSoA on the other hand. This present page tries to talk about certain issues that feel slightly uncomfortable for me. I want to share some thoughts about the idea that being part of the SSoA may be the only way to map carve the road to 9000 DNA-components in the ascension process today.
This is quite an intricate topic for me to write about, but I am going to try to unravel it to discover where I stand on this issue. Both the SSoA and my own sense of sovereignty say that it is not really beneficial for your ascension process to become dependent on anything. Like it is said in a May 2005 article. In that article you can read how part of the consciousness loss of the Grand Masters might have been prevented if they hadn't been dependent on their Sirian Teachers and the herbs of Earth.
So, there is something in me that doesn't want to get too attached to the SSoA. Perhaps that is one of the reasons why I did not partake in the Self-Study Program so far. Without the numerous articles of the SSoA there would have been no ascension process at all for me. I would probably still be reading all these messages from the Ascended Masters and Archangels. If I look at the way the SSoA has influenced my life I would have to admit that I am already strongly attached to their ideas.
As long as my own ascension process keeps moving I would prefer to ascend on the basis of the freely published articles on their site.
I was triggered to write this page when I read the introduction page to the new 'Mastering the Living Dream Program', which sounds like a wonderful program to me. There are however a few concepts which I find hard to embrace at this moment.
The first one has got to do with the possibility that you might need to have the support of the group during the intensives in order to fulfill upon the map to 9000 DNA-components. Although I readily accept the possibility that working in a group can accelerate the ascension process I have doubts that it would be necessary. I guess working in dreamtime and within some email-network could be enough to share new insights and discoveries which might help to attain the 9000 DNA-components.
Another thing is a money issue. Somehow I don't like the idea that ascending requires payment. Of course I agree with the concept of balanced giving and taking, but I tend to think that the mere fact that you are ascending and thereby gathering information, releasing karma and all, is a grand contribution in itself. If you share this information with others it is in my opinion a valuable way to contribute to the map carving process of humanity at large. If I understand it correctly new insights hidden in the tapestry of our lineages are stored in temples and are thus available for those who are able to have access to them. I think this is the most important thing: cleaning the lineages from karmic dirt without being fooled by any forces who prefer to block this process.
Another thing which I presently find hard to cope with is that idea that Earth 'expends a tremendous amount of energy...on those who participate in this program. There is only so much energy Earth can expend to bring forth human evolution and not take away from the ascension of other species or global ascernsion as a whole. And so we have vastly limited adult ascension both in the inner and outer Earth due to the time and energy consuming nature of guiding humans in their ascent beyond 3000 strands.'
To me it arouses the feeling that there is only a limited amount of energy for ascending human beings and if you would like to have a piece of the ascension cake you would better participate in the SSoA program. If not you might miss out on it even if you have the right ancestry. Although I want to stress that this isn't claimed anywhere literally I do get this feeling from these paragraphs in the article. I don't like the thought: "Oh, if I truly want to become a map carver I need to register for the program otherwise Earth won't give me any chi to allow me to move up to this vibration on my own or in a smaller group".
Another thing is that right now I prefer a slow ascension process which allows my body and me time to get used to the new vibration. This is another reason why I don't desire any group acceleration at this moment: there is enough going on already and I don't think it is a good thing to have too much DNA-differences between the etheric body and the physical body.
A thing that still troubles me is that perhaps I'm a bit of an ascending parasite. In the sense that I seem to ascend nicely due to the detailed information given by the SSoA on their site. Although they didn't spend much time on me (I guess we exchanged two or three emails since may 2003) I still have the feeling that I need to do something in return. Perhaps the building of this site is a contribution and enough to balance the scales. Perhaps there is no imbalance at all. I still don't know what to think about this.
What I do know is that at present I prefer to see if it is possible to remain independent (despite my strong attachment) from the SSoA (at least in the physical) and continue to ascend at the same time. Well, I guess this is it for now. We'll see how things are going to develop in the future.
UPDATE MARCH 2006: See Information Brokers
UPDATE APRIL 2006: See Pendulum Dependency and Paranoia
UPDATE MAY 2006: See SSOA Attachment
UPDATE AUGUST 2007: See SSoA Elitism